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"Imma see the donut, you can see the hole"
I've just been reminded this exists, so why not. Let's be here. (OH MAN, I HAVEN'T BEEN ON A SITE WHERE I FEEL LIKE I NEED INITIAL-CAPITALIZATION IN A VERY LONG WHILE. AND, LIKE, COMMAS AND THINGS.)
It has been long enough since I was here that there is NO TRACE OF CAPTAIN AMERICA ANYTHING, good GRACIOUS.
my house is a fucking wreck right now (oh, okay, forget the caps, apparently we're safe behind the cut) I haven't had anyone over in... months? it shows. I have no air conditioning right now, but honestly I still wouldn't be doing anything about it, let's be real here.
I'm doing good on social contact, mostly. twitter has people, discord has people (on more than one strata, even), I'm actually sometimes interacting with people on whatsapp even if I feel like I'm just the weird one looking in on conversations I shouldn't be a part of. (discord it's that but 'the useless one' which I realize is completely not great)
I am at about 80% of not feeling like an imposter at hockey-fanning, so that's good. that's positive.
work is not... ugh. I'm making good money. I like my team. I just feel like I'm fucking up (but am being told I'm not fucking up?) and it's fucking exhausting and ugh. goal is to try to take back some of my off-time but like. THE AIR CON IS NOT WORKING this is not good "do shit at home" time :/
plus I keep signing up for things? why do I do this. stop doing stuff with people. stop. you don't want to, you want to be alone. BE ALONE. it's okay. it's okay to say no when people ask you to things EVEN IF it's something you might want to go to.
I need to figure out a way for other people to try the escape room :( I'm so frustrated that we only got like 30 players. we spent A LOT of time and $$ on it and... ugh. but? it's not like it is Gone now. just not being used. it can be pulled out at any time and people can play.
I'm going to go through my clothes. I am. probably not tomorrow (time with family + I have to get something done for the partnership thing bc I said I would by Monday) but... Monday night?? (Tuesday is an escape room) and I think I'm free weds through until d&d two weeks from now? so that's good. that's time off. I just need to have an a/c :/ if I don't hear from the new people I should probably just go ahead with the guy who had the too much estimate. or try-- huh. there is a fan in the living room. I might be able to sleep in the living room. that may have to be a thing I try tomorrow if it's as fucking hot as it is tonight.
It has been long enough since I was here that there is NO TRACE OF CAPTAIN AMERICA ANYTHING, good GRACIOUS.
my house is a fucking wreck right now (oh, okay, forget the caps, apparently we're safe behind the cut) I haven't had anyone over in... months? it shows. I have no air conditioning right now, but honestly I still wouldn't be doing anything about it, let's be real here.
I'm doing good on social contact, mostly. twitter has people, discord has people (on more than one strata, even), I'm actually sometimes interacting with people on whatsapp even if I feel like I'm just the weird one looking in on conversations I shouldn't be a part of. (discord it's that but 'the useless one' which I realize is completely not great)
I am at about 80% of not feeling like an imposter at hockey-fanning, so that's good. that's positive.
work is not... ugh. I'm making good money. I like my team. I just feel like I'm fucking up (but am being told I'm not fucking up?) and it's fucking exhausting and ugh. goal is to try to take back some of my off-time but like. THE AIR CON IS NOT WORKING this is not good "do shit at home" time :/
plus I keep signing up for things? why do I do this. stop doing stuff with people. stop. you don't want to, you want to be alone. BE ALONE. it's okay. it's okay to say no when people ask you to things EVEN IF it's something you might want to go to.
I need to figure out a way for other people to try the escape room :( I'm so frustrated that we only got like 30 players. we spent A LOT of time and $$ on it and... ugh. but? it's not like it is Gone now. just not being used. it can be pulled out at any time and people can play.
I'm going to go through my clothes. I am. probably not tomorrow (time with family + I have to get something done for the partnership thing bc I said I would by Monday) but... Monday night?? (Tuesday is an escape room) and I think I'm free weds through until d&d two weeks from now? so that's good. that's time off. I just need to have an a/c :/ if I don't hear from the new people I should probably just go ahead with the guy who had the too much estimate. or try-- huh. there is a fan in the living room. I might be able to sleep in the living room. that may have to be a thing I try tomorrow if it's as fucking hot as it is tonight.